I just want to be back in the game!
0 Comments Published by rizumu on Tuesday, August 02, 2005 at 9:05 PM.
I have before me my journal and a book that I have been reading, Wild At Heart. I have highlighted a portion that I felt strongly about. I even finished with QT having reading Matthew 3. From the scripture I picked up two verses for my keepings. Now, I'm trying to gel them all together. I wish to inject my current life incidents recently to form a stronger connection.
Some of you may know, my shoulder injury has been nothing but a nagging pain. The idea of gym and badminton sessions in a day is clearly out of the question. Anyhow, I have been visiting the physio in-and-out for the past 2 1/2 weeks. I went for another session today. Plus point? I got to know him a lot better and I don't have to wait anymore. I am feeling better too. Just rotating my shoulder as some angles still screams the hell out of me. But ya, pray for me.
I have been doing a lot of thinking about something. The result of this 'bitter anger' is a fragile situation. I honestly don't know how to handle it, which means I still don't know what to do because the action that I plan to take may not be just. In other words, I want to handle the situation in a christ like way. And I know that if I brought the situation to people, the wisdom is still mainly human. Guess to lift it up to God would be best. But a strong part of me feels like bringing down the house when I think of it. Sometimes, God hits you at your most sensitive spot to test you, well this is one of it!
So yea, I just wanted to lay those down to set a road map for myself. To be human and be in reality that although I'm a Christian, we face our own issues too. Makes us more human I guess. For one to admit that one is weak and needs help, instead of hiding with a fig leaf as Adam did; takes courage and well....initiation. God helps with that.
Some of you may know, my shoulder injury has been nothing but a nagging pain. The idea of gym and badminton sessions in a day is clearly out of the question. Anyhow, I have been visiting the physio in-and-out for the past 2 1/2 weeks. I went for another session today. Plus point? I got to know him a lot better and I don't have to wait anymore. I am feeling better too. Just rotating my shoulder as some angles still screams the hell out of me. But ya, pray for me.
I have been doing a lot of thinking about something. The result of this 'bitter anger' is a fragile situation. I honestly don't know how to handle it, which means I still don't know what to do because the action that I plan to take may not be just. In other words, I want to handle the situation in a christ like way. And I know that if I brought the situation to people, the wisdom is still mainly human. Guess to lift it up to God would be best. But a strong part of me feels like bringing down the house when I think of it. Sometimes, God hits you at your most sensitive spot to test you, well this is one of it!
So yea, I just wanted to lay those down to set a road map for myself. To be human and be in reality that although I'm a Christian, we face our own issues too. Makes us more human I guess. For one to admit that one is weak and needs help, instead of hiding with a fig leaf as Adam did; takes courage and well....initiation. God helps with that.
But to enter into a journey of initiation with God requires a new set of questions: What are you trying to teach me here? What issues in my heart are you trying to raise through this? What is it you want me to see? What are you asking me to let go of? In truth, God has been trying to initiate you for a long time. What is in the way is how you've mishandled your wound and the life you've constructed as a result. (Wild At Heart, John Eldredge)
That segment of the book really hit me. The late afternoon read of mine proved to be an eventful one after all. After dinner, the bible had other plans installed and pointed out these two verses for me;
Turn from your sins and turn to God because the kingdom of heaven is near (Matt 3:2)
But Jesus said, "It must be done because we must do everything that is right." (Matt 3:15)
The scripture says to me....turn from your sins and turn to God because we must do everything that is right.
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